Pain

I hate even writing this ,it sounds like to me I am whining. But in all honesty, it goes back to Daddy Jack English in High School. I remember him saying that we are not as strong as we think we are . I really thought I was indestructable. I have fallen off about everything you can fall off of. Ladders, trucks, pump jacks, buildings, and jump up and shake it off. But a fall on a wet floor at work has just about done me in. Extensive nerve damage that feel like someone is hitting me at a constant motion on my sisde. I can barely sit on the toilet and it is quite a task to get in the tub even for a shower.If I sit down too long it hurts ,if I stand up it hurts. I dont like pain pills, because I dont like to be without my full attention.I am 46 years old and I think there are people better off in a nursing home than I am. It truly is scary. I hope it all comes back and I can go back to work ,but it seems to be getting worse. I have even looked at people that are in my condition and thought, "they just don't want to work" Yes I am guilty of that, but here to tell you I am sorry and I am getting paid back for it.Please take care of yourselfs we only have this one body,wish I could go trade this one in but we cant.